are we having fun yet?
I don't think I'm having much fun lately.
I know being an adult sucks and all, but there is supposed to be some fun, right?
Every Monday I go into work with a good attitude. Okay, almost every Monday because some Mondays I already know it's going to be a bad day just based on what happened on Friday. I digress though.
Every Monday I attempt to change my attitude around. I try to be pleasant, to make my co-workers laugh, and then by Monday evening it's all vanished. My only outlet for fun these days is Twitter, and that's not real life is it?
This whole summer has vanished in a morass of work emails, large problems that mean I have to write up report after report after report, and pressure from management on everything.
This week a friend and I went to see the RiffTrax Live showing of "Jack the Giant Killer". I found myself sitting in a dark theater at Citywalk trying to catch my breath from laughing so hard, and I realized then and there that I barely laugh these days. I mean really laugh. Belly laughs. Laughs shared with others. Just laughing to laugh.
Don't get me wrong, I do laugh at what I read, watch, listen to...but it's not the same is it? That's more of a reactive laugh from being entertained. It's not the same.
A lot of this has to do with my workplace I know. Laughs are in short supply due to a crippling low morale currently being experienced. Also maybe the economy has something to do with it. I've never worried more about losing my job than I have in the last 3 months.
Maybe it's because I spend so much time alone but that never seemed to be a problem for me in the past. I don't think dating is the answer because I never laugh when I'm dating. Oh I fake it and all to make someone feel good, but no, dating is hell.
I don't know the answer to this fun thing at all. I'm probably not even looking for an answer because I bet I won't like what it is.
I hate looking for a new job.
I know being an adult sucks and all, but there is supposed to be some fun, right?
Every Monday I go into work with a good attitude. Okay, almost every Monday because some Mondays I already know it's going to be a bad day just based on what happened on Friday. I digress though.
Every Monday I attempt to change my attitude around. I try to be pleasant, to make my co-workers laugh, and then by Monday evening it's all vanished. My only outlet for fun these days is Twitter, and that's not real life is it?
This whole summer has vanished in a morass of work emails, large problems that mean I have to write up report after report after report, and pressure from management on everything.
This week a friend and I went to see the RiffTrax Live showing of "Jack the Giant Killer". I found myself sitting in a dark theater at Citywalk trying to catch my breath from laughing so hard, and I realized then and there that I barely laugh these days. I mean really laugh. Belly laughs. Laughs shared with others. Just laughing to laugh.
Don't get me wrong, I do laugh at what I read, watch, listen to...but it's not the same is it? That's more of a reactive laugh from being entertained. It's not the same.
A lot of this has to do with my workplace I know. Laughs are in short supply due to a crippling low morale currently being experienced. Also maybe the economy has something to do with it. I've never worried more about losing my job than I have in the last 3 months.
Maybe it's because I spend so much time alone but that never seemed to be a problem for me in the past. I don't think dating is the answer because I never laugh when I'm dating. Oh I fake it and all to make someone feel good, but no, dating is hell.
I don't know the answer to this fun thing at all. I'm probably not even looking for an answer because I bet I won't like what it is.
I hate looking for a new job.
